December 29, 2011: Back to eating clean today. I need to get all of this crap food and toxins out of my body. It should help get some of the funky thought out too. Please pray that I have the strength to detox while trying not to eat my feelings.I hate being alone with my thoughts.. In the end I just sit here and cry my eyes out. On a side note I feel like a terrible mother. Hayden spilled half a jar of gold fish crackers.. I got so angry with him , I spanked him and sent him to bed at 7:15. Now I am beating myself up because of that too.